for hungry souls!!

They say, that music is the food for soul..... but I guess, it really depends what you are hungry for.

• Love
• Companionship
• Friendship
• Food
• or plain old music

The first one being the hardest to find and the hardest to keep. I won't even go into it, as a thorough discussion on this topic will just be out of the scope of this blog! ;) *ahh! always wanted to say that..used to be in so many books at school!*

Then comes companionship - and that includes just about any kind. Work mates, blog mates, gym-class mates, swimming lesson mates etc. etc.. And their is never ever the feeling of expecting something/any thing - or so it should be. We just are part of it because it feels good. Feels like you are a part of something.

Friendship though it begins at companionship, its more than that. Because if you dissappear for a while, you are genuinely missed. Friends lookout for each other, encourage each other and tell the bad discouraging stuff on the face too! *sigh! How good that feels sometimes..!!*

Food - *slurp!* It sure is the reason everything is the world is done for. People work - To put food on the table! And not just food to survive, we need once a while something niiice and tasty, to make the tastebuds happy! My mom always used to say - "Nupur, tum badi chatori ho!!" (Nupur, you are ......*I don't know the translation of 'chatori'!!*

And Music, I don't know if music can replace love/companionship/friendship, (and it sure can't replace food!) but, it does keep one occupied when these are or aren't present!!! Music heals, music transforms, music fills, music satisfies, music fulfills, music incourages, music persuades.... and much much more~!!

And though I can't help you people in most of these regards that much - I sure can help you in one of them. Food - so if you are tempted - checkout my first recipe in the kitchen!!

long lost........ love?!

It doesn't even matter now....

Your very presence in the room,
used to give me goosebumps,
my heart would beat a little faster,
my breath coming in small puffs.

I would wait to see you look at me,
and then look away, pretending you didn't,
then you would talk to your friends,
while my girl friends would tease me - to no end.

It took me months to sum up the courage,
to talk to you for a moment,
to pretend to not look at you,
while eyes were at nothing else but you.

I couldn't understand what it was,
was it a silly infatuation,
a little fancy I had taken,
about to dissapear into thin air?

And then the winds of time changed,
for Destiny she loves to joke with us mortals,
she chose that I should go where you wont,
she chose that you would go where I don't.


And years have gone by, and I stare out at the moon;
A pyramid - that sees ages go by,
not knowing if its purpose has been fulfilled,
Should it crumble down to peices or stand for another century?

I have not crumbled to pieces I think,
I have just taken a new form, a new shape,
for I did not have the virtue of patience,
or the audacity to just fall.

The random thought still comes at times,
when I think where you are,
what you must be doing....
when a day just like today comes by.

You must have found your soul mate,
surely, just like I have.
Does she keep you happy?
Does she make you laugh?

Is she beautiful?
More than I am....

Do you even think of me? Ever?
Ever think of those times we shared - or didn't.
Of how it would have been,
only if we had taken the step.

I wish you have grown into an ugly bald guy,
with lots and lots of acne.
I wish that your girl is not any more prettier than me.

I wish I get to see you someday.
And then, I'll feel better.
That yes... I'm better off.

But you know what....
this is one of those rare days.
When I'm thinking of you,
but I don't fell the same.

I'm happy and content with my life,
and I can think of you without feeling sad.
I hope you feel the same....
that you are happy and content with yours.

Because it doesn't even matter now,
what you are.. what you do....

*although it'll be nice to know,
if you think of all this too!
I hope you'll get jealous when you see me!!*

but ofcourse -
It doesn't even matter now.......

garnish...from all directions.

I saw my little Shiru get his massage today at 1.30am on the webcam! :D The little chimp has started rolling on his back already!!

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Just heard that Miss Rai was on Oprah. She seemed to look a bit better than she did on Letterman and she didn't embarass herself again this time either - though her giggles seemed to never stop! She gave Oprah a sari and thinking about how much money she makes, I really think that she could have got a sari bit better than that!!

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My exam timetable is out. 2 exams on 7th June and 2 on 17th June!! So..exam from morning till evening both the day. I wish they had clashed on the same time or something so they could get changed sumhow!! *sulk!*

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The biggest passenger plane, Airbus A380, took its maiden flight today. Oh! beautiful!! *Does that mean that once these huge monsters are in business Qantas will reduce the airfares or the smaller planes to let broke students like me visit home regularly??!* - I wish!!

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And we have begun - preparations in the kitchen!!

excellent start to the weekend!

Just what I needed - a *bangin'* start to my weekend!!

This morning, round half past eight, when I was *deep* in my slumber (dreaming about my tutors laughing on my face as I struggle with my books and assignments!), the glass shade over my ceiling light slammed on the floor and shattered to pieces!! I woke up shocked, my first thought that the crazy tutors were throwing things around my room..! :O
Even the carpet on the floor couldn't stop the glass from breaking to bits and flying to every corner of the room - Thank God my bed is at the corner and not right under the light! *phew!*

I called my property manager - what if its saturday morning?! - and the girl said, "The light still works right?"
*umm...yeah?!*
"So its not an emergency. Send us the details of the damage in writing and we'll send someone to fix it sometime next week."

.......my head under that light would have been an emergency..eh?!

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In other news-
-- Treating my right arm with loads of balm each night.. almost healed *I hope!*
-- The third toe still hurts...damn the cold! coz wounds hurt more in winters!!
-- I got through that day in that warm woollen tee - after quite a bit of embarrasment.... *Weather Channel - oh why did I forget you??!*
-- The test went brilliantly! I forgot my calci - not allowed to use mobile - and so struggled with my fingers counting 17+56 - so dumb that I actually began with 56 and went counting on my fingers till I reach the 17th square on my fingers! -- du'uh!!!

Honestly I have become soooo bad with numbers - its not funny! I rely so badly on calculators that I dont even trust my own calculations, I recheck it on the calculator - the digital numbers giving me confirmation!!

Now... weekend till Monday! But have to work on my Digital Imaging excercises - Photoshop, my idea of relaxation from the crazy programming and networking subjects.

Now more than ever I believe in the saying - This too, shall pass!! Years of labor and finally the bachelors is at its last 2 months..... almost there Nupur!! Almost there......

Hows ur weekend coming along? Any exciting plans??

Just one of those days...

you know...

-- Right arm in pain *had a RSI scare!!*
-- Hurt my foot on the door of my closet while looking for something in the dark last night! still hurts... so wore the old pair of shoes. They look horrible!
-- Was freezing in the morning so wore a thick warm tee instead of a business shirt, now its beautiful n sunny and I'm sweating!!
-- Have a test at uni after work, not prepared.

Just one of those days.....